Freshman year of college is over. I'm a little nervous on some of my classes for this semester.. I'm not sure what the grades will be like yet... but here's hoping!! I made some new BESTIES, and I love them very much! I'm so glad that so far all of my friends are on the same track as me, and I will therefore be able to see them all when we come back for school in January. You can tell you've spent far too much time with a person with you start picking up some of their funny quirks! But that's all right!
I'm officially out of Rexburg, and I have entered Logan, Utah! I'm staying with Kathy until Tuesday when I board my plane around 5pm I think. Monday, my brother Chad arrives here, with his family, whom I haven't seen since Melanie got married! Super exciting I agree! I figure I'm going to spend the first week of being home catching up with friends, and writing a resume I'm sure... blah. haha. And then I will get going on job hunting, (and still hanging out with friends)^_^ That's the current plan.
I have TWO letters currently waiting for me from Australia, and I'm super excited... who knows by the time I get home, maybe I'll even have THREE!!! AHHHH. So much to reply to. I might have to put two stamps on my next letter to him to make up for the weight and fatness of it!!
I'm so excited to see my friends from home, but I miss my college friends so much already! I'm happy, (nervous about grades), and anxious to be home!
I love you all!
see you soon! or in the hopefully near future!
Saturday, July 25, 2009
Friday, July 17, 2009
Romantic Tragedy
"Anyone lived in a pretty how town"
anyone lived in a pretty how town
(with up so floating many bells down)
spring summer autumn winter
he sang his didn’t he danced his did.
Women and men(both little and small)
cared for anyone not at all
they sowed their isn’t they reaped their same
sun moon stars rain
children guessed(but only a few
and down they forgot as up they grew
autumn winter spring summer)
that noone loved him more by more
when by now and tree by leaf
she laughed his joy she cried his grief
bird by snow and stir by still
anyone’s any was all to her
someones married their everyones
laughed their cryings and did their dance
(sleep wake hoe and then)they
said their nevers and they slept their dream
stars rain sun moon
(and only the snow can begin to explain
how children are apt for forget to remember
with up so floating many bells down)
one day anyone died i guess
(and noone stooped to kiss his face)
busy folk buried them side by side
little by little and was by was
all by all and deep by deep
and more by more they dream their sleep
noone and anyone earth by april
wish by spirit and if by yes.
Women and men(both dong and ding)
summer autumn winter spring
reaped their sowing and went their came
sun moon stars rain
-- E. E. Cummings
anyone lived in a pretty how town
(with up so floating many bells down)
spring summer autumn winter
he sang his didn’t he danced his did.
Women and men(both little and small)
cared for anyone not at all
they sowed their isn’t they reaped their same
sun moon stars rain
children guessed(but only a few
and down they forgot as up they grew
autumn winter spring summer)
that noone loved him more by more
when by now and tree by leaf
she laughed his joy she cried his grief
bird by snow and stir by still
anyone’s any was all to her
someones married their everyones
laughed their cryings and did their dance
(sleep wake hoe and then)they
said their nevers and they slept their dream
stars rain sun moon
(and only the snow can begin to explain
how children are apt for forget to remember
with up so floating many bells down)
one day anyone died i guess
(and noone stooped to kiss his face)
busy folk buried them side by side
little by little and was by was
all by all and deep by deep
and more by more they dream their sleep
noone and anyone earth by april
wish by spirit and if by yes.
Women and men(both dong and ding)
summer autumn winter spring
reaped their sowing and went their came
sun moon stars rain
-- E. E. Cummings
Friday, July 10, 2009
REL 342
I dunno what's up with my religion teacher.. he's a nice old guy.. but I swear.. I've had like four different absences randomly pop up... on days when I know I was in class, and I could even quote you things we talked about. And I have specific memories of marking the roll! And then the next class, there's a blue highlight mark instead of my checkmark! What's up, man!? It's like he makes a new roll sheet, and skips over my name, and then marks me absent later? What's the deal!! Anyway, good thing he's fairly trusting, and so far I think when I've emailed him about it he's corrected it. Just frustrating in the last couple weeks.
More importantly, you should read my previous post!
loves
More importantly, you should read my previous post!
loves
Hinckley
I want to be happy,
But I won’t be happy
Till I make you happy, too.
(Irving Caesar, “I Want to Be Happy” [1924])
How true this is.
Every woman is a daughter of God. You cannot offend her without offending Him. I plead with the men of this Church to look for and nurture the divinity that lies within their companions. To the degree that happens, there will be harmony, peace, enrichment of family life, nurturing love.
-Gordon B Hinckley
But I won’t be happy
Till I make you happy, too.
(Irving Caesar, “I Want to Be Happy” [1924])
How true this is.
Every woman is a daughter of God. You cannot offend her without offending Him. I plead with the men of this Church to look for and nurture the divinity that lies within their companions. To the degree that happens, there will be harmony, peace, enrichment of family life, nurturing love.
-Gordon B Hinckley
Thursday, July 9, 2009
Being Nice
Being nice makes you good friends, fairly easily, and fairly frequently, which is lovely. And I love being nice to people, and helping them and cooking for them, or doing their dishes. Because I love them. And we're all children of God, which I think, as a mormon very much changes my perspective on doing good deeds or service for others. Makes me much happier to do it. I love it.
But it also makes you feel like they are good friends. And I think a lot of the time, that feeling really isn't mutual. People like you, because you're nice, sure. They don't mind having you around, because they at least don't find you too annoying. They probably feel like they know you well enough to come borrow a cup of sugar.. but do they feel like they trust you? Or that they can come to you when they're feeling down? And I do mean come to you, not dump on you if you happen to be there at the right time. Because I think that's very different, personally.
I have lots of friends. Lots of really fun friends. And I love them all. But I think that in all reality.. not more than one, maybe two, actually have an equal relationship with me. Not that I mind doing lots of things for people.. it's just that every now and then you wonder why no one else does anything for you, yeah? Sometimes it's a personality difference. And sometimes it's because they don't feel the same desire or obligation to send their love to you, as you do for them.
But it also makes you feel like they are good friends. And I think a lot of the time, that feeling really isn't mutual. People like you, because you're nice, sure. They don't mind having you around, because they at least don't find you too annoying. They probably feel like they know you well enough to come borrow a cup of sugar.. but do they feel like they trust you? Or that they can come to you when they're feeling down? And I do mean come to you, not dump on you if you happen to be there at the right time. Because I think that's very different, personally.
I have lots of friends. Lots of really fun friends. And I love them all. But I think that in all reality.. not more than one, maybe two, actually have an equal relationship with me. Not that I mind doing lots of things for people.. it's just that every now and then you wonder why no one else does anything for you, yeah? Sometimes it's a personality difference. And sometimes it's because they don't feel the same desire or obligation to send their love to you, as you do for them.
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
Bubbles
I've slowly come to realize the very wide differences in culture between people up here in Rexburg. I mean I certainly got a look at it last semester with all the roommate drama, but that was different I think. Or maybe, now I just have a more in depth knowledge of it, now that I know even more people.
I was having a conversation with Gesselle and a couple other people the other day about this I think. We all grow up in bubbles--not necessarily Mormon. At my high school, everyone I knew was comfortable with their body. No one came to school every day and complained about their weight or their fat, or anything of the sort. We didn't even really talk about things like that.
No one really had space bubbles either. We greeted with hugs, and we shared frequent kisses on the cheek (mainly girls only, of course). No one blinked twice if one of your girl friends came up and put their hands in your pockets. No one cared if you came and sat on their lap, or played with their shoes, or went through their backpacks. And we held hands all the time.
And I loved that atmosphere. And it is very different from many of the people up here that I know. I think that atmosphere is starting to catch on up here slowly, so different people have different aspects of it, but not entirely.
Every now and then someone objects, or is taken aback, or simply reacts to something so simple as holding hands with another girl, and I'm taken aback just as much or more! It's ridiculous. I swear half the people up here automatically assume you're lesbian if you're holding hands. I love holding hands! And holding hands with girls is very different from holding hands with boys! And I love both, and both make me feel happy, and comforted, but they are very different!!
And more importantly I love hugs! REAL hugs! That is atleast one thing that I find is more frequent up here ^_^ At home, alot of people give what I like to call "fake hugs". You know, side hugs with boys, or weird leaning, barely touching hugs with girls. In the words of the great Lindy Lee... everything is better when you're squeezing tight and add a little grunt to boot! haha.
Anyway, to end... there's nothing wrong with people having different space bubbles. It's just something new and weird for me to experience. And I love all my friends! And I think everyone should have an open mind, and love in their heart for themselves and for everyone around them.
You cannot love a single person, if you cannot love yourself.
I was having a conversation with Gesselle and a couple other people the other day about this I think. We all grow up in bubbles--not necessarily Mormon. At my high school, everyone I knew was comfortable with their body. No one came to school every day and complained about their weight or their fat, or anything of the sort. We didn't even really talk about things like that.
No one really had space bubbles either. We greeted with hugs, and we shared frequent kisses on the cheek (mainly girls only, of course). No one blinked twice if one of your girl friends came up and put their hands in your pockets. No one cared if you came and sat on their lap, or played with their shoes, or went through their backpacks. And we held hands all the time.
And I loved that atmosphere. And it is very different from many of the people up here that I know. I think that atmosphere is starting to catch on up here slowly, so different people have different aspects of it, but not entirely.
Every now and then someone objects, or is taken aback, or simply reacts to something so simple as holding hands with another girl, and I'm taken aback just as much or more! It's ridiculous. I swear half the people up here automatically assume you're lesbian if you're holding hands. I love holding hands! And holding hands with girls is very different from holding hands with boys! And I love both, and both make me feel happy, and comforted, but they are very different!!
And more importantly I love hugs! REAL hugs! That is atleast one thing that I find is more frequent up here ^_^ At home, alot of people give what I like to call "fake hugs". You know, side hugs with boys, or weird leaning, barely touching hugs with girls. In the words of the great Lindy Lee... everything is better when you're squeezing tight and add a little grunt to boot! haha.
Anyway, to end... there's nothing wrong with people having different space bubbles. It's just something new and weird for me to experience. And I love all my friends! And I think everyone should have an open mind, and love in their heart for themselves and for everyone around them.
You cannot love a single person, if you cannot love yourself.
Late Nights
My evenings, of late are regularly spent in apartment 512. Upstairs and to the left or right of my apartment, depending on your perspective. Some nights, my dear Kelsey is at work, although on the rare occasion, I am still at their house when she returns from work around 1 in the morning. But fairly frequently (as far as late nights go), the three of us, meaning of course, my dear Colby, Kelsey, and myself... sit upon the couch and share stories about our lives, and childhoods, et cetera! Which I very much love and enjoy, and, of course, CHERISH!!
It's kind of sad though, because I'm getting all attached to them!! Why do I seem to have a habit of these things, man!? I find good friends, right before it's time to LEAVE! Sad sad story. But, we're all on the same track, so, preferrably, we will connect back again when I return for the winter. Or rather, we had better, because I've already put them on the invitation list for the wedding!! And I love them! (No worries, no plan for a specific wedding yet!). It'd really help having such named wedding in Idaho though, as far as having college friends attend. And Utah family.
I still need to work on my cracking down on homework plan.. but fingers crossed.
love you all!
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
RAD Keychain
I am now certified to carry a concealed and deadly weapon.. mwahahaha..
My keyychain....!!!!
Monday, July 6, 2009
Two Weeks
By the way.. I'm seriously dying for school to end. I'm way way done. The only class I enjoy going to anymore is Horseback riding. The others simply aren't my favorite anymore. And of course I love RAD, but the last class is tomorrow! And that will be a very sad day!! My classes are starting to wind down tho.. just projects and papers now.. which I don't exactly enjoy either.. oh, and tests, don't forget those. I'm just sick of school! While I LOVE my new friends, and I will be TERRIBLY sad to part from them for the fall.. I just can't handle it anymore!!
I need to find some way that will pull me through the last two weeks, and not distract me too much from homework. Cuz I need to do homework =/ Oh, and SAD day, Michael is officially in Australia, and I won't be getting any letters from him until I get home. I will have to subsist on the weekly emails forwarded to me that are to his parents.
Just two weeks and three days (counting today) left until school is out. And then I go to Logan the day after, and fly home on Tuesday the 28th!!
I need to find some way that will pull me through the last two weeks, and not distract me too much from homework. Cuz I need to do homework =/ Oh, and SAD day, Michael is officially in Australia, and I won't be getting any letters from him until I get home. I will have to subsist on the weekly emails forwarded to me that are to his parents.
Just two weeks and three days (counting today) left until school is out. And then I go to Logan the day after, and fly home on Tuesday the 28th!!
JUNE!
This month, I made friends!! That was my most exciting thing. To which I attribute all to the Relief Society campout, which was wonderful as I've said before. I first started hanging out with Gesselle, who lives right above me. I'm not sure exactly, how I started hanging out with the girls in 512... perhaps because I visit teach Kelsey, or, perhaps because I went over there when Gesselle was hanging out over there. Perhaps it started with Colby and her sweetness being miss Doctor for Gesselle! Couldn't say, don't recall, but I'm simply glad I have them! 
Then.... I went to visit Chloe! My old buddy from my elementary years, who used to live with me. It was a super fun weekend, but I got super burned.. haha. But itwas good to get back to the olden days and recall the old memories yeah? My burn was pretty bad.. I'm still peeling like.. 2 weeks later!? Yeah. I had like blisters and all kinds of such things. Pretty gross. Every couple hours I went to one of my friends at Aspen, and got them to rub Aloe Vera on my back. But no worries, I returned the favor for some, since I wasn't the only one to get burned that week!!
Well, the month of June has been great! Lots of fun. Couldn't even spend the time to tell you about all that has happened this month! And really I guess not all that much has happened, but it seems that way! I've been keeping up with my mother's suggestion to get the permanent addresses of all the friends I make that I want to come to my wedding (whenever that may be). So far, my college list includes Lindy, Gesselle, Kelsey, and Colby. What dears! Don't worry, I've still got my list of high school friends too. And my list should be growing every year, yeah!?
I love my girls!
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