Recently

Wow, seems like a lot has happened in my life of late. And yet at the same time it's still pretty empty. Currently, I am still looking for a job... With no success. Yeah, pretty lame. And I've been home now for almost two months now... wow, does not seem that long. I guess because when I first got home, the first month or so was spent hanging out with Paula, and then being a loser with no social life, when she left.

Nowadays, I usually hang out with Mandy all day twice a week or so. We seem to be making a habit of hanging out on Tuesdays, and then going to institute together. We are becoming fun amazing friends. Right now she is sick, which is sad, because she coughs all the time, and just looks and sounds very tired. But I still hung out with her all day yesterday and bossed her around to make her sleep and such things... hehe! woops! That's okay though, I think she needed it. And she wouldn't let me do much else for her ;)

I've recently been adopted into what I believe is referred to as the "Pretty Pretty" group... haha. Sorry if that sounds like a flashback from The Uglies, series. Promise we're not air headed though. It's a circle of lovely amazing girls. And we're constantly helping each other through our individual crises. I expect to grow a lot this semester, and a big part of that growth will be because of my circle of girls. I hope to continue to grow closer to those wonderful girls!

I've decided that if since I am home, and since I have so much free time, and since I do not have a job, there must be a reason. Last time life was like this (last fall), I decided in hindsight that gaining the wonderful miss Lindy Lee, as a friend was a big part of why I was home, and why Michael went to college a semester before me. And while I certainly love, adore, and very much appreciate the friendships I am making down here this semester... and hope to keep many of them for a life time, and beyond!! I think there's more to me being home.

I've idled a lot of my time of late, and I think I'm done. With that aspect. I'm making a goal, to read the Book of Mormon every month until I go back to school. And then, at least once a semester, if not twice. I also want to attend the temple. I started to go several times a week, before I left Idaho, and I certainly miss that aspect.

I'm pretty certain my Graves' Disease is coming out of remission. And I've ignored it for a couple months now... and I'm pretty sure it's time to do something about it. I'm becoming more fidgety, and anxious, and nervous. I frequently suffer from fatigue, or insomnia. I can almost always feel my heart beat as strong and as heavy as, in Colby's words, "an army marching." When I wake up in the morning, I am seriously hot, physically, and internally. And no amount of cold liquids does anything for it. And my heart is racing as though I've been jogging, even though it should be as slow as ever since Ive just been sitting in bed. I feel like my eye sight is deteriorating, and I'm losing weight (though the weight I can also place blame on myself for!) So... yeah! not very good signs.

At any rate, I've learned a lot in the last week. More than I can even describe or share with you. Right now, I'm going to go do homework, and read my scriptures, and then make lots of phone calls to a series of doctors. Hope you, my friends, have a wonderful day!