English

If I were to have a most disliked word in the English language... it would either be "initiation" or "hate"

Dino Dukies!!!!

While I take credit for perfecting the exact measurements and time to boil these lovely treats known as Dino Dukies (or, No Bake Chocolate Cookies, for boring people...!!), I must also give credit to Paula Prince! From whom the recipe was originally stolen!

Add:
1 stick butter
2 cups sugar
1/4 cup cocoa
1/2 cup milk

In a pot! Mix, cook on medium high - high (Stir continually or your chocolate will burn!!). Just before it reaches a full boil, set a timer for 1 minute and 30 seconds (for Texas!) or, 1 minute and 20 seconds (for Idaho!). Perhaps a few seconds longer if it's raining or something.

Turn off, and add 1/2 cup peanut butter. Stir in the peanut buuter, and then remove from the hot stove. Mix in 2 1/2 cups of 1 minute Oats (or until it looks good!)

Immediately spoon out onto tin foil or wax paper and let cool / set up!

ENJOY!!!! ^_^

Imminence

The future seems to be a massive blog of missing information.
How much stress and frustration is borne on wings of questioning the days to come?

Write my Story

My mind keeps traversing the winds of change.
Sanity is fading and it seems so strange.
Surrounded by the nearing future,
This time might have an author.

Food for Thought

"Run mad as often as you choose, but do not faint"

Jane Austen's
Mansfield Park

Drawn Nigh to my Bosom

There is no greater pain, no greater estrangement from sanity, than the piercing daggers of love refrained. When he yet loved ignores or even lies ignorant of that very love you feel, he may very well draw himself nigh unto thy bosom in need of comfort or even in the blissful tenderness of slumber. In such a moment a woman must begin to feebly ponder the possibility of a hidden love, that may still reside, unfound, in your other's subconsciousness. And, to smell his scent, so closely to thy face and heart stirs a rippling process that can ne'er be ended without the destruction of ignorance, and then the embracing of feelings past and continually felt. For past can blend to future, and then meld into the present, that all in betweens disappear into a nothing--a nothing more quieted than any Christmas mouse--most likely because it is not fabled, and rather happens as a daily occurrence in the eternal round we fondly refer to as mortality. What is mortality without the mysteries of life, that daily tear us between the woes of pain and joy that we might appreciate the severity and blissful divinity in both emotions?

Soon to Say Goodbye

I've been back in Austin for a week or so now. But on New Years, January 01, 2010 I return back to Idaho for good. This semester I'm taking

Drawing I
Art Seminar
Old Testament
Class Piano Instruction Level I
Introduction to the Visual Arts
State and Local Government

I'm living in a set of apartments near the gym! Which is pretty exciting, I think! Feel free to email me and I can give you my new address. I'm so excited to leave... I need to finish packing... but I'm sooooo ready to leave. I miss the lovely people I know and love in Idaho, and I just miss the place. It makes me feel better, no matter what may be wrong in my life. I just love the place. And somehow, I feel like it will make me feel closer to Michael, at least for a time, because of the memories we have together in Rexburg.

I love you all, my Texas friends, and I shall miss heaps, as Michael might say!
I look to the day I shall see you once more.

Idaho!

So, I am back in IDAHO! Just for a week, to be at Lindy's wedding, but still. I love the snow. And I just love Idaho, so much. Snow, blankets the leafless trees, and all the evergreens. A thick hazy fog ensnares the land in a beautiful scene of wintry wonderland. I just love it. "I do not feel the cold, Brother!" comes to mind! I just love it so so much.

I cannot even express the desire I have, to get married, and live here, and to raise my children here. It's like all I want in the whole wide world. It's so beautiful. And there's just a feeling in the air... I really can't explain it, but there is love in the air here. It's like... sometimes I can feel Michael's presence all around me. I feel very happy and comforted here. I just love it so much. I feel closer to the Lord, when I am in Idaho. I just feel, very uplifted.

I adore Texas, and it forever holds a very large piece of my heart. And I will always love coming home to my beloved Austin, Texas. And I cherish the fond memories of people, friends, and family, that I have there. There's nothing like it.

And so, Texas is my home. And Idaho, is the home for my heart.

Shred

In the past I've always had some shred of hope, that things were atleast supposed to be mutual, and that both sides wanted things to be mutual. I think, that this point, I'll just give up that hope, and see how well I work without it.

Don't Cut The Cord

Best friends can go months, even years without seeing eachother... and when they are once again reunited, it feels like they've barely been apart. Because their friendship was so tight knit, and still is, that it withstands the tests of time.

However, avoidance... is something that damages that cord, that connection. Neglecting a relationship wears thin that connection that enables the endurance of time.

And I don't think there is anything worse than that. No one should ever have to lose a friendship that could have lasted forever, if not for the neglect it suffered. No friendship is "perfect" because its the differences that bring out our tightest bonds. But every friendship is precious, and should be regarded as such.