Good Buddies

I need good buddies to hang out with again.. I feel lost and estranged. I have a couple friends.. but most of them are much better friends with other people, and therefore I feel ignored or.. left out or.. looked over .. something like that..lol.. and the ones that I feel pretty level with.. well there are negatives to seeing them, cuz there are always other certain persons there, that I don't particularly want to see. I dunno what to do =( The only people that ask me to hang out with them on a regular basis.. are people that I'm afraid to hang out with and therefore.. im trying to avoid them! Complicated.. so don't ask lol.
sadness...