Emotional Drain

I'm not sure exactly what it's been today... but I am in a serious emotional drain. I know that it's been piling up for the last couple weeks, and it just simply hasn't gotten better. Probably didn't help that I wasn't productive at all today. I didn't get anything done on my list of things to do... and now have to complete my homework while I simply do not have the energy to care about anything.

Today... I woke up late. And my head just felt groggy all day. I can tell I'm starting to get sick... and it's not a party. Half way through the day, I got a phone call saying that my TSH, T4, T3, and T3total blood results were off the charts of way past normal, and that I definitely need to get back to seeing an endocrinologist. And it didn't really bother me at the time, because I've been experiencing the symptoms for some time now, and therefore already was expecting that answer. It would have been more frustrating for them to say it wasn't back. Because then I'd have to wonder what else is wrong with me.

At this point I just... feel a lack of hope for any of the currently stressing areas in my life. It's like no matter what I do, something's always wrong in my, or someone else's life. Being a young adult sucks. Because we're all growing and changing and being squished and molded... and so we never know who we are. Other than the fact, of course, that most of my closest friends know that they are a Child of God. Which helps. But everything else? Oh it's all changing.

There is no greater misery than having no hope... I'm hoping things will get better after tomorrow... but I have the feeling it will be a slow and steady process instead of just big and instant change.
I just want to be done.