Pride Cycle

When reading the scriptures... people always comment that they find it so absurd that in periods of history such as after Christ's death, it takes so little time for the people to dissent from the truth. We always think, "They had seen Christ! How is it that they could have strayed so far in only 200 years?" Or in other sections of the scriptures where the people were righteous, and then in just one generation they were wicked again worshiping Baal just like their great great great grandparents or what have you...

I've always wondered how many people realize how preposterous that manner of thinking is. I'll tell you right now that without even knowing a single clue as to the lives of my ancestors from 200 years ago, that I am a very different person than they were, and I'm sure I live my life very differently than they would have me living according to their traditions.

We should know better to think that way from the example of our lives alone. Just because I had a testimony when I was seven doesn't mean I didn't rebel when I was thirteen. Just because I had a testimony when I was fourteen doesn't mean I didn't stray when I was sixteen. I felt firm and steadfast when I was eighteen, and yet I have struggled since then. I have been righteous, and I have been wicked. And that cycle has happened several times within my own life, let alone in the time span of a generation or more. I think that many of us look back on historic times as a fairy tale void of the passing of real time, with real emotions and complications. But they're lives were as much of a fairy tale as ours are now. We place higher expectations on these historical figures, than we would ever place on most people we know.

It does not matter what miracles you have seen, and it does not matter what time you grew up in. Nephi's brothers saw angels and yet that did nothing for them. It is only the strength of our testimony and our faith that mean anything.

My greatest goal in life will be to foster the kind of faith and testimony in my life that can endure an entire generation. One that I can pass on to my children while they foster their own.