Older Generation

Well I've found myself quite integrated into the older generation. Or rather, the generation right above the "Youth" and the generation just barely above that group as well. I frequently get comments from people in singles ward that compliment me on my amazing maturity. Anyone that doesn't know me assumes I'm like 23 or some other silly age like that!! I love everyone in Mount Bonnell, and they really are my ward family.

As for that other generation.. I mean the young married folk from my home ward that I babysit for!! Even people that used to be my young womens leaders and such. I now count them among my friends and chat with them from time to time when I see them. I have started to generally refer to most of them by their first names too. Just seems really weird calling them Sister Bird or Sister Summers, et cetera!! Because I do feel close to them, and they are my friends, and it's not like I don't have plenty of other friends their age!! It became most apparent to me when a bunch of the young married women had organized a night to go see Twilight and I was invited along by many of them. I was sad I couldn't make it, because I had other plans. It would have been a lot of fun hanging out with them like that, and not just coming to their house to babysit their kids! lol. And I realized that I do feel a bond of friendship with them. It's alot of fun!! Makes me feel all grown up, feeling free to call the married folk by their first names.

Well, that's all!!
8 more days to go after tonight until I leave for Idaho!!

All Packed

Yes, it was only December 9th, but I am all packed. Im pretty much living off the clothes that I'm not taking with me to college for the next 2 weeks. I went to the post office today and sent off 2 of my boxes of stuff, and my friend Lindy's two boxes of stuff that she left with me, to her house!! So, that's excitimus. And I have 3 little boxes of stuff like pillows and blankets and coats and slippers that will be sent to me when I find out my apartment address.

All Packed

Yes, it's only December 9th, but I am all packed.

Shopping Spree

Well, Ive started my winter clothes shopping spree! I've ordered new jeans, and sweater tights, and underwear hehe! And I've got a list of clothes that I plan on buying, on a website as soon as I sell my instruments and have money to spend!

I found a coat to buy that I'll be able to wear on sundays, and I found boots that wont get ruined in the snow, but that look casual and cute so I can wear them on a regular basis. And I've bought lots of yarn to make scarves with.. ! And I found some cute flannel pajama bottoms, and some thermal long sleeve shirts! Things are going well. Though I need to find a better source for long sleeve thermal shirts. I've only found a couple shirts that I like.

The main things I haven't really found yet, are sunday gloves, and new sunday (close toed) shoes! Other than that, I feel pretty set.

Though I'm starting to go crazy being stuck down here still. This last month is going to last forever. All my friends have their own lives now, so I sit on the computer most of the day, wasting away. Even with my last minute projects to try to keep me busy these last weeks.. it couldn't happen any later!!

Though, I do know I will miss being home soon enough, since I'm not coming home during spring break at all (so says the current plan).. I'll be gone for nearly a year. But I'm still going crazy. Quite literally..

Random Funny

Just a... make you laugh and be happy picture. Because it's cute.. and funny! hehe

One Month To Go

So I figure this upcoming week I'll work on all my Scrapbooking atleast until it's all finished!!! and the week after that will be Box sorting week. which means going into the garage and throwing away everything that I don't think I'll miss in 20 years. and putting all that i want to keep in hopefully one big tubbaware. And it also means boxing up or throwing away or giving away all the junk in my room that I don't plan on taking to college!! The 3rd week, I've declared SHOPPING WEEK.. so that's like clothes shopping for idaho, and christmas shopping alike! And the week after that is Packing / Hanging out with paula week, before I leave for Idaho!!!

makes me feel really good and like it's finally coming!! yayyy

Numa Numa

Getting Ready

Well, I once again am feeling that need to GET READY. I've got about a month left, and a couple days before I go to Idaho. I'm just not sure what there is for me to do this early to get ready. I feel like time is starting to encroach and YET take forever.. but I just don't know how I can get ready. I ordered some clothes online today.. but there's still tons left for me to buy. I guess I needa get back on task about selling stuff. If I can sell my flute and my guitar.. I should be set I think for buying winter clothes. Though I feel some remorse about selling my flute, I never really planned on selling it cuz I'm attached to it even if I suck. But I suppose it's not really practical to keep a 700$ instrument I'm not playing.

And I needa finish all my scrap books. I've just felt overloaded for a while on it.. and have't had the heart or energy to start such a daunting task.

I have things I should be doing.. but I still feel like that's not enough to feel like I'm GETTING READY.. aaahhhhhhhh!!!

Dress Up!

As my form of entertainment today.. i played dress up!! haha. enjoy

Taxi Service

While mom has been away to Arlington.. some of the people she visit teaches have come to rely on me for their rides across town that normally they would get from my mother.. I do not like the fact that they are so dependent on getting rides from my family that they will stoop low enough to ask the daughter of the person they know for a ride.. I may not do much during the day.. but I do not enjoy driving people around. And I certainly don't enjoy driving people around that have the gumption to backseat drive or try to correct my driving techniques. I'm supposed to give this lady a ride tomorrow.. that wants to be taken to someplace right off campus. Every bus in Austin goes to UT campus!!! There is no reason why she can't get herself there. One should never be so dependent on the help of other people that you are unwilling to use the resources around you.

I'm also going crazy by the fact that it is impossible to get through a single day without the phone ringing at least 5 times. Three of those times it's usually a telemarketer. Two of those times it's a real person that wants my mother. And once in a blue moon it's for me or my dad. I get up to answer the phone groaning "my mother is not here.. go away" lol. I've really started considering unplugging all the phones atleast one day this week so that I just don't have to answer the stinking phone.

Other than that, life is pretty good around here.. I've been reading alot the past couple days. I had an inspired moment the other day, and now have an idea for a story to write.. so that's exciting. My friend Lindy is most excited, cuz she was my inspiration lol. Or rather something she said, late at night! =D Mom has suggested that I can be my adult self and come and go as I please, if I leave a note for them informing them of where I'm going and some contact info etc, if i'm going to be home after 10. Too bad this is all happening after Lindy's gone! my stay out late buddy lol. Ill find ways to stay out tho.. it's exciting.

I've been spending alot of time lately looking at cold weather clothes to buy online. That's been what's been occupying my time alot lately anyways.. I'll be spending loots of money on it I'm sure. Which is why I've been trying to babysit as much as possible, to get some extra money for the task.

Anyway, thats emily's life!

Happy Birthday Jarom

Well I was invited to go to over to Jarom's house after Stake Conference on Sunday, because his mother was holding a luncheon with brisket etc in celebration of Jarom's birthday last friday (the 7th). The food was good, and the company was good! So it was fun =) After everyone was done eating, some people left, but then we played Apples to Apples. Vanessa Nelson came over!! Apparently she walks the D's dog! She looks totally different. She joined us in our game, and then we had cake! It was really good cake. And then my daddy arrived to take me home.. and we ended up sitting there for another hour chatting. lol. Of course.

On a side note, President Hollingsworth is the new stake president! Paula's mommy and daddy can finally sit next to eachother in the pews! Good thing now that Paula's gone!

Voting

 
 
I voted! haha. Not much else to say other than that. lol

All Souls Day

Well my birthday was pretty much like most any other day. Took Brenda to work, took a nap.. ate food lol. While I was taking Brenda to work I didn't have my cell phone on me, cuz I didn't think about it, and because I would only be gone for 20 minutes. But during those 20 minutes Lindy Lee called me twice.. and ended up leaving me a message on my voicemail. It was the cutest thing ever.. a sing-o-gram wishing me a happy birthday. Her family is too cute. I tried calling her back but I just got the answering machine. Paula called next and we talked for a while, but then Lindy called back while I was talking to Paula and I told Paula I'd call her back. Lindy and I only talked for like a minute and a half before we lost the connection or something.. sadness. But I called Paula back and we talked for like another half hour. A little later, Michael called to wish me a happy birthday! Then I went to take my nap. Richard called halfway thru my nap and I was like.. ugh I'm sleeping lol. Not really, we talked for a few minutes, he wished me a happy birthday and then let me continue sleeping.

I thought about seeing a movie.. but I didn't know that I really wanted to pay for any of the movies out. I wanna see the Chihuahua movie, but I promised I'd see that with Jarom. So I emailed Jarom and arranged to see the Chihuahua movie after intitute on monday! Yay. Now I'm just waiting for some other good movies to come out.. I know they're coming! like Australia and Twilight! Anyways, around 10pm I called my friend Alex to see if he wanted to hang out, but apparently he went to sleep around 2 that afternoon, and hadn't ever really woken up. Poor guy. We're gunna hang out later in the week tho. He says someone should take me out for my birthday, so it'll be him.

If Grandma Fish we're still alive, it'd be her birthday today. So Happy Birthday Grandma!! I love you!

An Adult

Well, I can officially go clubbing with the girl friends!! haha. Seems like an odd concept, but I know many of my friend go clubbing. I stayed up until 2:07 as is tradition to have my spoonful of Mint Chocolate Chip Ice Cream. I realize every year, how stupid of a tradition this is.. since it's incredibly hard to stay up that late when you're all by yourself without a buddy.. and it also seems incredibly pointless, and since you have nothing to do.. you realize just how much more fun it could be with a friend there lol. But, I managed to complete the tradition another year. When I get married my husband will have no choice but to wait up with me, which will make it better, cuz I'll have the buddy that I always wanted when I stayed up! ^_^ Anyway.. I'm 18 now. You can call me Jail Bait no longer!

Not like I haven't really been acting like I was 18 for the past couple months anyway. I've gone to a couple places with Lindy where you needed to be 18 lol. Besides that fact that while mom and dad were away, and while I was living with Lindy I made a habit of staying out until 1-4 in the morning. In fact.. I'm acting less like an adult now than I was a week ago lol. Not that I'm implying that all adult should or do stay out that late.. but YSA's do!! haha

Knowing

Well, my plans with Lindy have pretty much fallen through.. due to a long list of reasons I won't go into. So I'm stuck at home until Christmas again.. Doing what I have been doing.. which is nothing. Yep, I feel pretty depressed at this point, and honestly feel like dropping from the face of the planet for a couple weeks. I don't know. What I don't know, I don't know.. but I don't know.

And now we're back to the complicated Christmas plan which will never give me a steady answer for what the heck is happening in my life until the day I'm leaving.. and even then.. who knows..

Just Want To Know!

Right now I'm split between possibly leaving for Idaho shortly after Thanksgiving.. or leaving shortly after Christmas. I mean I'm not really torn between the two decisions.. I just want to know what's happening. I want to know if I should be starting to think about packing yet. I want an exact schedule that I can give people. Like.. I leave on this day, I get here on this day, I do this on this day, I leave for here on this day, and then blah. You know? I wanna know! I know I've said this plenty of times before.. but it's getting closer and closer to when school starts.. and I still don't have a clue what's going to happen. It's getting to the point however where I need to have a plan that I can tell people especially since my going up to Utah/Idaho involves so many people.. esp if I go for Thanksgiving! I have to come up with a plan.. and make sure it works with everyone else! I wish my life was simple like the rest of you. Everyone else knew exactly when they were leaving, AND coming back.. months and months ago lol. Posh.

Ear Update

Well I went in for my check up with my ear doctor, Dr. Scholl... you know.. that LONG AWAITED and several times POSTPONED appointment that I've been waiting for? lol. Well, I went in, and he basically just said he couldn't tell, so he was gunna put me under the microscope. So we went into another room, where I laid down on a bed/table thing, and he took out the remaining packing and blood and wax etc from my ear so that he could see. Aaaaaand... I still have a hole. Sorry, I know, not exciting news. Basically it's really high up on the ear drum, which should make my hearing a little better.. and it's really tiny. Once again he was about to tell me good news, and then he spotted it. It's just a tiny tear, a fraction of the size the hole used to be.. but it exists. So I'll check back up when I come back from BYUI for the fall.. and hope that it heals by itself for now. So I still can't get water in my ear, but it does mean that if I get on an airplane in the next while, I wont have to worry about the pressure changes bursting my ear.. cuz it's already broken! hah.

Anyway, there's your update.

Goodbye Lindy Lee

Well, last night I stayed my last night at Lindy's house. Alex came over after we picked him up from the local pub and we watched Singing In the Rain! Well, they did, I went to sleep on the couch hehe! I woke up briefly when Alex left, but then went back to sleep. I considered going and talking to Lindy, but i figured she'd come back eventually lol. I did get up once, but she was in the bathroom, so I did in fact go back to bed. Next thing I knew Lindy came in saying "Emily, it's 5:30!" and I jumped up, and we both changed and rushed for the next 10 minutes to get all her stuff into the car! Yay for staying up late.. and waking up late lol. We didn't really have a clue how to get to the airport... and ended up calling my parents.. hehe at 6 in the morning! yay for my parents. Through lots of speeding, and rushing, we got there! I parked the car at the drop off place, and helped her get her suitcases inside the airport.. and waited around until she had checked her luggage, and then we hugged goodbye. I'll miss her lots and lots. But right about now it looks like I might go live with her in Idaho for a month before school starts. And then maybe for the summer semester or later, we plan to be roommates! I mean come on! We've been living together for like two weeks and we're not sick of eachother.. what better sign than that is there?

I would have pictures from sending her off at the airport.. but we were in a rush and I left it in the car by accident. I'm assuming she got on her plane since I haven't heard from her yet. (We got to the airport at like 6:30 and her flight left at 7am) She's supposed to arrive in Idaho in the next twenty minutes or so though, where she will be met by her lovely sister! Hopefully I hear from her before the day is over anyways.

Another Fairwell

My dearest Lindy Lee has come to the decision to return home to Idaho early. She's been staying at my house for the past couple days, but will be returning to her house to make other fairwells before she leaves. Im not sure how much Ill see her the rest of this week, but hopefully a couple more times. I went with her to her house yesterday and helped her pack up books and things. Ill be keeping a bunch of her stuff like her books and other such things and take it up to idaho for her since she's flying up and has far too much stuff for one plane trip up, quite honestly. Besides me taking her books takes away alot of her weight. My mother keeps telling me to make sure I can actually fit all of my stuff and lindy's stuff and course other passengers in the car. but im sure itll work out. Especially now that its just me, mom and dad going up to idaho. Honestly I wouldnt mind leaving on a plane right now with Lindy and living with her for a semester or something. Hopefully we atleast find eachother whenever she goes back to BYUI if nothing else.
Soon I wish farewell to my lovely Lindy, but for now.. she wants to make "idaho spudnuts" lol. <3

"Reagan Black Out"

http://www.kxan.com/Global/story.asp?s=9154638&rnd=518.0324431630454

The big rivalry match of Reagan vs. LBJ has turned blackkkk.. I personally think this is spawned from the fact that the police, and the school administrators no longer allow seniors to stay the night before the Reagan game to protect the school (or illegally attack Reagan's campus haha). Though I am a bit surprised that the tshirt was created by teachers! I understand however, that it was likely for something radical to be done since they stripped seniors of a long honored tradition.. along with several others last year! And people may attack Mr Patterson for allowing the Tshirt to be sold.... but honestly, if he hadn't approved it, so many people would be breathing down his neck. So he had a lose-lose situation.

So basically, for those that don't know.. Reagan and LBJ used to be under the same roof, but they split long long ago before anyone of a decent age can remember. I just know about it because I'm amazing like that.. and it helps that all my siblings come from a completely different generation than me. So it's a big rivalry, even though Reagan sucks big time every year. This year the Reagan v. LBJ game is on Halloween! And they're calling it Reagan Black Out. Everyone's wearing black! And of course many will be wearing this radical, argumentative, school sponsored t-shirt.

I myself am GOING TO GO TO THIS FOOTBALL GAME! And I'm sure people will invite me to all kinds of other activites at the same time.. but this is an epic event I have to be there for haha. I'm going to wear my gothic pants hee hee, and this black shirt I have, and a gangsta hat. haha. it'll be exciting. And what better, it's the night before my birthday! So I'll be with my buddy Krista, just hours before my birthday. And it'll help me stay up for my long tradition of having a spoon full of mint chocolate chip ice cream at 2:07AM, the time of my birth.

FHE: take 2

Oh! I thought I'd let ya'll know the follow up on FHE. I tried again on Monday to go to the new UT FHE group, aaaaand I left my house like an hour early so that i had lots of time to find parking!!! And I indeed found parking. Just in time too, I was about to pay 6$ for a parking lot place. And I was introduced to Caroline and Eva, who are two other people in singles ward that are of the younger generation lol. Very nice, lovely girls that I'm hoping to get to know more! And I'm still working on Shanna and Virginia, and definitely clicking with Lindy. So, good news! =)
Just trying to be the social butterfly that I'm not lol. And being involved and amazing, like I am =P haha. loves!

Craig's List

Well I sold my turtle today! I had an ad up on Craig's list, and the guy called me back last night after Institute while I was listening to Lindy play! So we arranged for him to come to my house this morning at 10am, which happened. He showed up gave me my money and drove away. My turtle is now going to a lovely 1600 gallon koi pond where there is apparently also several hundred mosquito fish for the turtle, and the guy's giant frog to feed on! How exciting. He just called me (how sweet), to tell me that he's in his new home, and has been swimming from one end to the other, popping his head up and climbing on lily pads, and just having the time of his life! So that's great.

I started taking pictures of my empty tank today, so I can sell that next! I'll get a 100$ or so out of that, so that'll be nice cash to save up for college spending needs that are soon approaching. And I also got out my guitar, and started taking pictures of it and the case and instructional books etc that I have! how exciting I know!

I've already started cleaning my mouse cages and other tanks that I have a good collection of out in the garage so I can start selling those soon too! Other than that my life currently consists of watching movies and sitting on my computer, living from email to email, constantly on waiting lol. And going to institute, and the occasional hanging out with singles ward people, which is a fave. And of course, in Lindy's words, I must learn the language of "Lindy with her mouth full of food". Which I think will be a fun thing to do ;)
So life is pretty good right now! =)

Buddy!!

I went to institute tonight.. aand afterwards, I went and mostly listened to Lindy play piano, with the occasional outbursts of song, well maybe not occasional lol. And I joined in with her a couple times. Much to her surprise and my glee on one certain song written by Gordon B. Hinckley, which few know about. oOoo i know. Anyway, I wasn't really planning on staying long, because I meant to let her have her playing/practicing alone time which I know she enjoys. But it's purely too much fun watching her play, it never seems like a good time to leave!

And maybe it was meant to be, cuz when Bro Hopkins locked up the institute, we went outside to our cars, and Lindy asked me if I had had dinner yet.. which lo and behold I had not lol. So she told me to get in her car so she could kidnap me away to the closest fast food restaurant lol which happens to be Wendy's which is funny, since of course Wendy's is my traditional restaurant to eat at with my friends! Different Wendy's, and not at the round table, but still very close lol. It was a true kidnapping. Lindy the sweet dear even paid for my food, cuz my purse was in my car. I forgot eep. =/ anyway, she and I sat in her car and listened to amazing choral music with our eyes closed, tho I admit that I did watch Lindy for part of the time cuz it was funny and cute lol, until she caught me and yelled at me to close my eyes and FEEL the music! To be honest I have no idea how she can eat chocolate frosty with her eyes closed, I myself am not that talented lol.

Eventually she drove us back to the institute where we proceeded to chat and listen to more music until it looked like a car was soon approaching that might find her a bit in the way.. lol.. when she promptly ordered me out of her car lol. But I must say it was rather rejuvenating to do something fun and spontaneous, with a lovely new friend, that is quickly becoming a much better friend.

Good Buddies

I need good buddies to hang out with again.. I feel lost and estranged. I have a couple friends.. but most of them are much better friends with other people, and therefore I feel ignored or.. left out or.. looked over .. something like that..lol.. and the ones that I feel pretty level with.. well there are negatives to seeing them, cuz there are always other certain persons there, that I don't particularly want to see. I dunno what to do =( The only people that ask me to hang out with them on a regular basis.. are people that I'm afraid to hang out with and therefore.. im trying to avoid them! Complicated.. so don't ask lol.
sadness...

FHE

I tried going to the newest singles ward FHE group, by UT campus.. and I was really excited about going.. for several reasons.. But it didn't work out.. I got there, the apartment wasn't hard to find.. but parking was.. and in the effort of trying to find alternate parking.. I got lost.. eventually found Lamar, and from there got on 38th to I35.. but I just went home. Saddened, disappointed.. ultimately bummed out.. and tempted to get sonic on my way home, but settled for the ice cream in the freezer at home..
Meh.

Bishopric

Well who knows if you've heard... but today Bishop Simsonsen of the Walnut Creek Ward, Austin Stake... was released. He's been the bishop for foreeever now, so it was time. And guess who's been called to replace him? Michael's dad. So Michael is once more the son of a bishop. Cuz Bishop Kelm was our bishop long ago too, when I was little. Now time to talk about his first counselor... make a guess... ready? My dad! Dad's worried but it'll work out alright. I think the amount of time he spends talking to himself in the shower is about to skyrocket though lol.

And, since I forgot to mention it... last week I was called and sustained as a member of the Enrichment Board. Means I actually have to go to enrichment, huh? lol.

On another, but related topic.. Singles Ward! I've been having lots of fun, but I'm super excited to be turning 18 soon, so people can stop calling me Jail Bait (since it's technically illegal for any of the guys to date me) lol. I've been making lots of friends though! I have Lindy and Cherise and Dawn and Tamara! And I'm starting to bond with Virginia and Shanna, so that's exciting! Lindy, Virginia and Shanna are actually my age, which is fun and exciting! ^_^ I'm super ready to leave for college though. I'm anxious, the family's anxious.. we're all just ready! It needs to happen. But I'm a little sad, cuz I mean I just barely said goodbye to most of my friends.. and when I leave I'll be saying good bye to all my new friends, and Krista! Though I will be closer to my old friends too, and that's nice.

Other than that, nothing new.. I get my wisdom teeth out this thursday.. no worries.. I'll post pictures haha.

The Bleh Life

Well, to be honest I've been rather depressed lately. With Paula and Michael gone, and Krista busy with her own school life, I feel terribly out of the loop.. and I feel like I can never talk to people when I do see them online, because my first assumption is that they are doing homework and can't be disturbed.. so I never end up talking to anyone really.. I've made a couple connections in the singles ward, but there will forever be a gap considering they're all much older than me.. the only girl I feel like I get along well with.. I don't want to spend much time with her.. because while she seems to be an active LDS member, her goals and values are a little mixed up.. and I don't want to be influenced by that.

I don't have anything to do really.. because I'm not taking any classes, and I don't have a job.. so I did atleast sign up for 2 institute classes this week.. so I have reason to get out of the house every once in a while for an hour or two.. but a couple hours out of the week doesn't feel like much.

To top that off I've already by depressed for ages about not being able to start packing up and moving off to college with everybody else.. and when I actually do leave, in December.. was supposed to be something to look forward to.. I had it all planned out how it would work great for me.. Paula gets back on the 20th, and I would leave on the 28th so that I had a whole week to find time to spend with her, and I could slowly meander my way up to Idaho, hitting the old family tourist spots along the way.. and be able to spend a couple days in Utah seeing the family, before I had to be in Idaho to move into my dorm..

However, Jeff and Elessandra decided that they wanted to go up to Utah with us, so they could get their baby blessed with Grandpa Fish, and hit all the tourist spots they wanted to hit.. And of course, they want to do it on their schedule not mine. They want to leave way before Christmas and preferably before Paula even gets back from Utah, which on that they will not get their way atleast... on that I am not budging. I won't leave before seeing Paula. The whole purpose of my trip up to Idaho was so that Mom and Dad could move me in to my dorm.. which under Jeff and Elessandra's plan won't happen because they want to be back home, before I'm even able to move in, so that they wont miss any days of school. They would prefer it if we didn't even do any touristing on the way up, and just hit all the sights on the way home, which means I don't get to do any of it. Jeff has decided to be utterly cocky about the whole thing, and proclaim that I'm tagging along on his trip, instead of the other way around. It's my trip, that's all there is to it. They wouldn't have even considered going up to Utah if I wasn't already making the trip. But since he thinks it's his trip, he thinks he can make any change to the plans he wants, and have every thing go his way. He doesn't even think I should care about seeing Paula before I go, and that I should just get over it. I also don't think it's fair that Jeff and Elessandra want to go up to have mom and dad and Grandpa be there for their baby blessing.. but they're not allowing mom and dad to be there for Kathy's baby blessing the first sunday of January. Completely unfair. I think that if Jeff and Elessandra really want to come with us on my trip, that they should be willing to make a sacrifice and miss two days of school, since I'm having to make plenty of sacrifices on this trip too. Besides the fact that I do believe Kathy wanted us to be up there in January long before the idea of Jeff and Elessandra coming with us was ever mentioned.. she certainly should have seniority rights..

At this point I really wish I could just be flown up, and not have to deal with it or him any more. I've stopped caring about the touristing, and the entire trip, because it was supposed to be something to look forward to: my last family vacation, where I could relive childhood memories, with just mom and dad. However, since that's not even happening.. and all the stress of trying to making plans work.. I simply dread the whole trip all together. Entirely and seriously.

I've even considered asking to go live with someone for the rest of the semester so that I could fulfill my urge to pack up like everyone else. However, if I did that I'd be doing even less than I do at home.. which is nothing.. alot of nothing.

I keep wanting to work on a project, like scrap booking, or journaling.. but I don't feel like I can do either.. I need money to buy paper and order pictures for scrapbooking, and I don't have the money to do that.. or I don't feel like I do.. And I want to scan the pages of old journals for my journaling project.. but our scanner doesn't work right now.. so I can't do that either..

And so.. I wait.. and do nothing..
You have no idea how simply frustrated and restricted and misunderstood I feel.

My Ears

Well I still don't know if the hole in my ear drum has been fixed yet.. so this isn't that exciting of a message haha.. but I tried to put in a set of earrings today.. and discovered that the scar from where they made the incision to take fat from my earlobe, goes over the back of my hole in my right ear.. so I'll need to get my right ear pierced again.. lol. Lame, but oh well.

And I should find out if my surgery was successful in a week or two.

Solitaire Teeth

Well today I went to Dr Quaroni, not sure I spelled that right, but whatever.. He's a pretty cool character. Anyway, bottom line of the story is.. that I'm getting my wisdom teeth removed on October 2nd. Almost in time for someone's birthday! haha. And a month before my own! My top ones are slightly at an angle, and my bottom ones are straight. At any rate, he says they look pretty easy to take out, and he estimates my only being in the office for about an hour and fifteen minutes.. much better than when I waited around for Jeffrey to wake up from getting his wisdom teeth out.. at least 4 hours I know.. There's got to be something unhealthy about being put to sleep with an IV as many times on one's life as I have.. ho hum.

Anyway I kept busy today.. doing load upon load upon load of laundry. My blues/greens batch went in first, followed by my purples/blacks batch, followed by my whites, followed by my blankets, sheets, pillow cases etc... followed by my reds batch! Yah, lots of laundry.. I added another handful of clothes however to the closet devoted to stuff that I'm not taking with me to college however, and so can be given away. All my clothes fit in my closet now! Except for the long sleeve shirts I have in another closet lol.

In the between times of activities.. I was either.. folding laundry from a previous batch.. or playing solitaire on my laptop.. I played somewhere around 50 games before the day was over.. and I dont think I want to play another game of solitaire for a long while... lol.

Doing the huge attack on laundry was mainly because Jeff and Elessandra informed us that their exchange student from Taiwan had brought with her a rare chinese virus that.. there was a good chance I might have picked up since I had seen her twice in the last month, with plenty of contact to boot, while going ice skating..

Doctor told them to clean all the sheets and all that.. so mom was worried about me too. But, turns out she doesnt have a rare chinese virus.. it's just a not so ordinary bacterial dealie.. and I should be fine.. but atleast my closet looks pretty.

Besides that.. I turned in a bunch of videos today.. which leaves me... exchausted lol. Not the turning in the videos.. just.. everything lol. Anyway, gotta go.. sleepy time ^_^

Sporks: Spread the Word

I know everyone loved using that plastic spork during lunch at the cafeteria or at Taco Bell, or wherever you may have encountered the wonderful invention. However, there are no utensil companies that make METAL sporks.. soo I invite you all to take part with me.. in signing this petition for a utensil company to make metal sporks!

http://www.thepetitionsite.com/takeaction/968374036

However, I do want a spork for college.. cuz I mean.. you know all the cool cats have one =P haha. So I bought a spiffy weird one from REI that's a Spoon on one end and a fork on the other.. and the fork has one side that's serrated like a knife! Now isn't that spiffy?

Institute

Well I found out that I don't have to pay for institute here... so I signed up for two classes to give me something to do and to get out of the house every now and then. I have a class M/W 12-12:50 called Fundamentals of Scripture Study. I also have a class Wednesday evenings from 7-8:30 on the New Testament. I've only gone to my afternoon class, with my friend Jarom so far, and besides Jarom and I there's only like 3 other people in the class haha. My evening class on Wednesdays will be full though I'm sure.
Singing the opening hymn in my afternoon class is interesting though, since I'm the only girl... aaand none of us can play piano.. lol. Lots of fun ^_^

Laptop

Well I bought a laptop today! Super exciting i know! Its an HP Pavilion.. if that means anything to you. lol. It has web camera.. so if anyone else out the the family and friends circle has a web camera... we can see eachother over the distances! Exciting I know. I had lots of fun playing with it earlier.

I got lots of gadgets to go with my laptop too.. thats what the picture's for! The thing on the left that's plugged into my laptop is a cable lock to shat i can connect my laptop to a table or my desk so no one can steal it! The black thing beside that is an extendable ethernet cable!

On the lower left hand corner of my laptop.. you'll see.... a remote!! I love things with remotes.. It's so I can watch a DVD on my laptop and not have to push buttons on the laptop itself. I can be sitting far away or laying down on my bed or whatever the case may be..

On the right you'll see a 2.0 USB hub! So I have 3 additional ports.. making 6 all together.. more than I'll need im sure.. but nice. I also got another 1GB memory stick! Now I have two.. I didnt think to include the other one in the picture lol oh well. Next thing you'll probably notice is my extendable MiniMouse! I figure I'll prolly use it in my classes.. it can be nicer than using the mouse on the laptop, depending on what your doing. Nice and portable is it not? And I also have a plain old wireless mouse that I'll prolly keep in my dormroom.

The laptop itself, is a 14.1 inch screen. And it's a dual core processor,with 3 GB of RAM and 250 GB of harddrive space (which after formatting and back up.. is more like 195 GB). I could give other specs but its not important. I have plenty of space and speed though.. since I also have a 250 GB external harddrive! ^_^ exciting I know. I'm all set. I've got all the programs Id like on it including Word and Excel and PowerPoint and Picasa and AIM etc.. Ive even got Norton Internet Protection. Ive still got more to do though.

I wasnt expecting to get my laptop anytime soon but my mom said shopping in december was a bad idea... chistmas makes for slim pickings. And we got really got deals for everything. So thanks bunches Mom and Dad! But of course, like my mother has taught me.. special thanks to Dad since its his money! ^_^

The Hunt

I feel at this point.. like looking for a job is pretty pointless. I mean it's already pretty unlikely for anyone to hire someone that's only going to be here until right after Christmas.. and by the time anyone manages to look at my application it'll be even less time that I'll have left. And I'm seriously sick of people bugging me about it. I don't want to talk about it, at all. Bugging other people about things may get them to do it eventually, or feel better... it's not helping. It makes me avoid it even further because then I just get doubly more frustrated about the whole ordeal. Just accept that I am different from you in your motivators. Seriously.

However, I need SOMETHING to do.. cuz I've been spending my days seriously sitting around doing nothing.. and watching the occasional movie.. and occasionally getting desperate enough to turn on the TV to get frustrated by the lack of shows lol.

Mom says I should look into volunteering at the local children's hospital or something.. that way I have something to do with my time. I dunno, sounds a little scarey, but we'll see.

I might end up taking a course at Austin Community College like.. college algebra or something that should easily transfer to BYUI.

Spice it Up

with music! (must click on "Pop Out Player")

Childhood Memories

Well Im about to go relive childhood favorites! I was at a Dinner Group the other night for Singles Ward, and we started talking about Anne of Green Gables, and they mentioned a "continuing story" that i dont think ive seeeeen.. so i really wanted to see that.. but I went to the library.. and somebody currently has it out.. as soon as my mother is awake.. Im gunna get her pin number and put it on hold! And.. while I was at the library, I noticed that there's also a prequel which I don't think I've seen.. that was also out .. that I will also have to put on hold! But I atleast got Anne of Green Gables, and Anne of Avonlea.. tho it'll be a little weird to be watching the Prequel, and then the "continuing story" lol. Atleast I'll have recently seen the middle parts. And I think there's a "sequel" too. I wonder which comes first, the sequel, or the continuing story... hmmm.. lol

And I also went over to another library to pick up a child hood favorite called Willy the Sparrow!! My mother gave our copy away to some sibling or other when they moved out and got married and had kids.. loooong ago.. completely without my permission I'm sure.. as it usually is when things disappear from my house. But I get to watch it now! yay!

Height

I went to my Endocrinologist today.. aand nothing very eventful, but she did of course (or rather, the nurse before her), take my weight and height!
And I have decided that I can officially start telling people that I'm 5'7" cuz I was only 2 millimeters under that. For the longest time I've been saying I was like 5'6.5" lol, but no more man! If you people that are really 5'3.25" can say your 5'4", then I can say I'm 5'7"
woot.

Church

Well this past sunday I went to Singles Ward all by my lonesome in a way, of course since I no longer had Michael and Paula to sit next to in our pew! However, I actually got there 5 minutes early this sunday, which in singles ward time.. is forever lol. There were about three other people there (maybe) lol. I ended up sitting down next to a girl named Ali, that used to be one of my YCLs at girls camp lol, she's about 19. I chatted with her for a while, until Tamara got there and she sat down on my left, and a girl named Michelle that I met in a dinner group a week ago, sat down next to Tamara as well. Eventually Ali left me, to go sit with some other people lol, so I was glad to have Tamara and Michelle! They're fun to talk to.

I realized during sacrament though, that it was weird not to have Michael's presence on my right side. Just felt empty.

And in Sunday School, Desiree and Jarom sat on either side of me. I kept having the instinct to put my arm around the person to my right.. but then I'd realize it wasn't Michael lol. And I missed having Paula to pass notes with!

Dr Bryson

Well I think many of you will recognize the name of Bryson lol. Yes, one of the sons of Sister Bryson. I went to him yesterday for a kinesiologist appt yesterday. The goal was to make sure that nothing was wrong with my intestines like others in the family and to find out what he thought I was allergic to..

He ended up telling me the following
Avoid
Red 40
High fructose corn syrup
Caffeine
Chocolate (except dark is okay on occasion)

Add (to Diet)
Iodine
-seaweed
-kelp
-seafood
Omega 3 fatty acids
butter
eggs
flax seed
spicy
-ginger
-turmeric / curcumin (curry)
-capsaicin (cayenne)


Red 40 is in everything by the way haha.. it's the most used food coloring in the world, Yellow Number 5 is number 2 competitor for the top spot... and it's almost a million pounds above Yellow Number 5...

We'll see how seriously I end up taking this dietary instruction =) It's not like I eat junk food that much. "Avoid" doesn't mean never eat.

Sending off Michael

Well, I went over to Michael's house yesterday around 7 o'clock just to drop by.. spend some last minute time, and give him the scrapbook that I made him from the past year. We sat on his couch with the rest of the family doing their own things in the living room, as he looked through the book. We chatted for a while, and then went on a walk. Nice alone time, where we could hug goodbye, and that kind of thing..

I started crying while we were hugging.. which I guess is good. I felt really at peace almost immediately afterwards.. so I know it's what the Lord wants, and that we're all just following along the right plan right now.

Afterwards we went back to his house, and his family had him running around posing in different places, like with his rabbit Lucy, and on top of the infamous red car. It was fun to watch, and I also got some pictures in too. Then he gave me a pint of my favorite Mint Chocolate Ice Cream, because he knew that there hadn't been much ice cream around the house lately, and that I really need my ice cream when I'm depressed lol. I had actually been eating icecream all day cuz I convinced my dad to get me some the day before.. but I still went home and finished off the pint. ^_^

I'm glad things have finally happened, and we're no longer in super limbo. But I am now, once again single in my life.. which will be interesting I guess.

Tin Phone

Well today i tried the experiment of tying string between two tin cans.. but it didn't work so well. I think it's cuz the way i have the cans situated so that the string is taut.. the vibrations don't travel well because its around a corner or two... and etc.. and i think the distance is too big.. i think it's only sposed to work for distances of up to 20ft.. ho hum lol
but it didn't work any ways.. made me sad. =/ lol. itd be cool to have someone across the street from me and we could communicate thru our secret tin cans. cooler as a kid im sure.. but still.

Sending off Paula

Well today I said goodbye to my best friend Paula. It almost feels more real when I'm not around her that she's leaving. I think about it and my throat restricts. I went over to her house around 2, arrived ten minutes later. She was on the computer with Dallan. Her mother was who answered the door, even before I got to the door lol.
We didn't do much really. Paula and her mother looked through my little scrap book that I made for Paula.. and just kinda took a tour of her room "empty" which pretty much looks the same as it does with her stuff in it. And we sat around and talked a little.. and got on her computer so she could show me pictures and I could make her watch my awesome Target ad video. Every now and then her mother would call down asking if she forgot some item, which paula had indeed forgotten lol. Hopefully she doesn't forget my scrap book! =)
At 3:00 or soo.. her mother came downstairs telling Paula it was time to go say goodbye to grandma.. which kind of threw us for a little loop since we were expecting to sit around for another hour.. but Paula and I walked out to my car and talked for a little bit before her mother and Dallan said I could drop her off, and they were just going to drive away and leave her lol. So Paula and I hugged, and she got in my car and I drove her around the corner! ^_^ We hugged goodbye, one last time, and paula waved goodbye to me as she walked into her grandma's house. Paula was a real sweetie about it.

I'm not sure when exactly it'll feel really real that she's gone.. but for now.. I'm still sad about it.. even if it'll prolly hit me the most when she's not there on sunday. And Michael won't be there either. I was tempted to stop by starbucks on the way home and use my giftcard that I got in NY to get a shake or "blend" or whatever they call it.. but I was a little low on gas so I decided not to.. but I really want ice cream... and all we have is a tiny container of sugar free banana nut or something.. and you know how hard sugar free ice cream always is.. makes it almost not worth the effort.. who knows maybe I'll splurge and go buy myself icecream ...
we'll see.

Target

my favorite ad in the whole wide world. haha
(in the mindset of people moving away to college, esp!)

My Ear

Well... i went and had my appt today.. felt kind of useless to me.. like most of my doctor appointments do lol but oh well. I guess the doctors feel like they're serving a purpose. I basically went in.. waited for like 30 minutes longer than I should have had to... and then went in.. and he came in shortly thereafter.. and I took the band-aid off my ear and he took out the cotton.. looked in my ear with his little thingy, and said "yup the packing's still there" and putt the cotton back in.. and blabbed to me about sending his son that's my age off to college this week for 5 minutes.. and then sent me on my way.. lol.
Yah kind of lame.. so I'm supposed to start putting drops in my ear every day to dissolve the packing.. so that he can look and see if the patch took.. like.. in Thanksgiving =/ I get no information until then..

LBJ Drum Major on KEYE Tonight

The following is an email I received from my old Band Director.

Dear LBJ Band Members and Parents:

I know you will want to catch this this evening (Tuesday).
KEYE-CBS Channel 42's story about our drum major Alec Gramann airs this evening at 6:00pm.

Invite your friends to check it out. The reporter says she believes we'll really like the presentation.

Go Jaguars!
Go Alec!

(if you don't catch it .. http://www.keyetv.com/mediacenter/local.aspx?videoid
=20234@keye.dayport.com

Zodiacs and things

I am The Horse :
Self-reliant, Joyful, Outgoing, Sophisticated, Greedy, Resilient, Arrogant.

People born in the year of the horse are the real workers, they will not stop until the job is finished, but it must be in their own time. They have razor sharp minds and can sum up a situation in seconds, some times too quick for their own good, and they will leave before getting the whole picture. Horses often have several projects on the go at the same time. They are confident, ambitious and expect to reach the top of their chosen paths. The horse values the opinions of others and will change course when advised by people they respect They are quick to lose their temper, but seldom bear a grudge.

Horse lovers are eternally young at heart. They sail through life on a whim, spontaneous and open-minded waiting for the next big adventure. Horse lovers are charming and affectionate. They are inspiring with their imagination and vigor, their intellect and wit. They make you want to be around them and thus hardly have problems securing Saturday night dates. Horses are energetic spouses who fall in love quite rapidly. Along with their spontaneity comes a bit of impatience and they demonstrate that when they meet someone they want to be involved with. They throw all of themselves into a relationship, sometimes losing tiny bits and pieces of themselves along the way. However, a light at the end of the tunnel: in adulthood Horses are more stable and thus their adult relationships are more successful. Horses live their lives in full swing. They have boundless energy and spend more time on the go than they do at home.

http://www.netglimse.com/holidays/chinese_new_year/learn_about_your_chinese_zodiac_sign.shtml

Free Rice

Just my little advertising gimic to throw in here.. but this website is basically a game, where it gives you a word.. and 4 options for the definition. For every word you get RIGHT they donate 20grains of rice. There is 48 grains of rice in one Gram, and it take 400 grams of rice to feed one person for one day. So every little bit helps. Their first 5 months in business they got enough rice to feed over a million people.
So basically they're trying to build up our vocabulary, while trying to stop world hunger! It can be fun, so trrryy it out.


Speaking of educating the free world.. here's a random interesting tidbit for you:
Aoccdrnig to rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it deosn't mttaer in waht oredr the ltteers in a wrod are, the olny iprmoatnt tihng is taht the frist and lsat ltteer be at the rghit pclae. The rset can be a toatl mses and you can sitll raed it wouthit a porbelm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe.

Pictures

Well today Michael and I went on a date to take pictures. So basically we just walked around downtown and drove around to a good portion of our good old date spots to make memories, and just to have more pictures together! lol. It was super hot outside to be walked around, but it was still fun. We got to ask lots of random people to take our picture.. and if you look at michael's blog, you'll find wonderful details of how we were at Zilker Park and I nearly got ran over by a passing bicyclist cuz I wasn't paying attention lol. I'll leave you with some of the pictures. Our spots include but are not limited to... Zilker Park canoeing, Amy's Ice Cream (the cows!), the benches by the church, the Clock Tower Park by the church, bowling and Wendy's!

But we also took pictures that were classically austin.. you know.. UT Tower, The Longhorn by the Basketball Stadium, and such.

Big Event

Well, today I really didn't do much.. except I received my new battery for my phone in the mail today! Which was really exciting. It's not really a perfect fit.. but oh well, it works. Now I should have a longer batter life than like.. a day.. lol.. maybe back to my old 1-2 weeks! that'll be super exciting. Now my phone looks brand new.. atleast from the back. lol.
And of course.. I don't think I included the good news that after 45 minutes of sitting on the line with customer service.. I finally got my voice mail working on my phone so that if i don't answer.. people calling me actually get to hear my voice message! Very exciting. Means if I don't recognize your number.. and you don't leave me a message.. I will assume it was a wrong number and I will not call you back, cuz I don't know who you are! Who wants to waste minutes? Not me!

Gay Beliefs and Politics

Access to this link/entry is by request and invitation only.

You probably don't want to know.
Seriously.

LBJ Drumline on KEYE TV

Below is the link to tonight's KEYE - Marching Band Challenge (2008); group one (included- LBJ, Anderson, McCallum, McNeil, Reagan). The winner of these 5 drumlines will advance to the finals - competitng for the grand prize... a big chunk of money (awarded at halftime of the NFL Dallas or Houston season's opener).

I watched all the videos, and the only one that comes close to LBJ is McNiel. So if you wanna watch the two good videos.. it'd be those two. It'll be real close.... but vote for my alma mater!

http://www.keyetv.com/content/entertainment/band/default.aspx

You can vote every 24 hours!

Not Pregnant

I forgot to put in the most important part of the story! The whole reason they wanted my pee sample was to make sure I wasn't pregnant! Lol. I actually kind of hoped I couldn't pee cuz the lady said if it came down to it, they might just let my mother sign a waiver saying "we promise she's not pregnant" lol

Made me happy when the nurse came back and said "It was negative". I laughed.
the female nurse had faith in me.. even if the male nurse did not.
lol. just a short dust bunny i thought i'd share with ya. lol

Surgery Day

Well I wasn't too hungry when I woke up this morning.. which was nice! Since I wasn't allowed any food after 10pm the day before. It was at 10pm that i was hungry lol. Yesterday though I had planned to go off and do things.. and then i crashed on my bed with the light on so thats okay lol.. i just woke up early this morning to take my shower and take the nail polish and jewelry off (they said noo nail polish, why? whoo knows). We left at 7:36 and got to the surgery checkin room at 7:55 (Bailey Square).

Check in was dandy.. and we only had to wait for like 10 minutes before they called us back to my little room. Then we prolly waited another like 15 minutes before this guy came in and asked questions and told me I hadda give a pee sample to prove I wasn't pregnant =/ And I was like.. hello I've been fasting.. and I already went to the bathroom today.. not that long ago.. there's nothing in me with which to pee! He wasn't very considerate to the fact.. and told me to do it anyway.. so i tried.. and failed--no der.

Then another nurse came in.. she was nice i liked her. She asked me to change into my little hospital gown. And then she covered me with warm blankets and numbed up my hand, and put the IV in, and then proceeded to inject me with water for the next 20 minutes and then sent me to the bathroom. This time I succeeded.. but it took effort man lol. Just to let you all know. Which I'm sure you're thrilled to know.

A couple other nurses came in.. my anesthesiologist for the surgery and just whatever.. each asking their own little individual questions.. and a couple over lapping questions. All this time my mother taking pictures like I asked her to ^_^ I taught her how to use the camera first. i was a little worried for a while when i got there cuz they said they might do tympaniplasty, he asked me if it was okay if he took tissue from behind my left ear since behind my right ear is mostly scar tissue now. which would have meant i was more likely to be throwing up.. and i wouldnt have been able to eat as much food.. i would have been on liquid and saltine cracker diet for a while.. and it would have meant both sides of my head hurting instead of just the one...... and having much more balance issues.. and just.. a major pain.. but I got myringoplasty instead of tympaniplasty.

Then it came time for me to be wheeled away in my little bed to the surgery room. Before I had even sat down on the surgery bed they hooked my IV up to the general anesthesia and it takes 30 seconds for it to fully kick in.. so the second I was laying down on the bed I was out. I have some vague memory of the recovery room.. i remember thinking that it wasnt the surgery room and it wasnt my little waiting room. Nothing other than that. I mainly just remember waking up in my little room again, and seeing my litte mommy waiting for me. And soon a nurse noticed I was awake and gave me 4 whole graham crackers and a cup of apple juice.



A little later I requested from the other nurse (the one i liked) if I could have more graham crackers and another cup of apple juice. But she freaked out thinking they'd already fed me way too much.. and i was like..... but it was only 4 graham crackers.. then she found out I'd had myringoplasty instead of tympaniplasty and she gave me more food lol. I wish I could have hospital jello.. they've never given me hospital jello. Then she took my IV out.. and after a few minutes I was able to get dressed and be wheeled away in my wheel chair. But my doctor (Doctor Scholl) came in to see me first.




Since I'd noticed while I was in the waiting room before my surgery that there was a little park behind the hospital.. we stopped by so I could take a picture in the swings. Kinda made me feel sick to swing in them tho so I only did it for like a minute.. for the purpose of taking pictures only. Then we hopped in the car, and stopped briefly to take a picture in front of the hospital sign.. and then went home and ate some chicken noodle soup on the couch.. When I promptly fell asleep on the until 4:30 (I think we got home about 12:45).

We had soup for dinner too! A different kind though. And I think next I'm watching Nim's Island (my mommy bought it at Walgreens today when she was getting my meds and I had already wanted to see it). Then I wouldnt be surprised if I went to sleep.

The Day Before

Well as we all should realize.. today was my last official day of being able to swim for the rest of the summer... pretty much anyways.. since I have surgery tomorrow on the hole in my right ear drum.




However, I didn't have a car ever available to me today in order to go down to the public pool.. and i didn't really feel like walking the two miles up there, much of which is uphill. So I found the kiddy pool in the garage that jeff and elessandra bought and left last time they were over.. blew it up Myself.. and filled it with water! I think i sat around in it for a couple hours, and near the end I got a little bored.. and thought I should record this momentous occasion.. with some pictures!
Since we didn't really take many pictures at the beach.. these are my only swimsuit pictures for the summer! lol. Good times though I think. And I think I got a little bit more tan! lol. Atleast more of a tan line is evident.