In light of the election it feels only appropriate to share for a moment some of my thoughts on the matter. Regarding Hillary... The feminist inside me believes that she was a strong woman who would have been able to carry the mantle of presidency.. and I suppose some part of me laments that the "glass ceiling" remains. Realistically I don't think this election ended up having much to do with her gender, but more in regards to her character and for that I am glad. Although part of me worried that having a woman as a president would make our international relationships with countries that do not respect women more difficult, which is sad to admit but regardless true. I hope you don't confuse my sympathy on the matter of Hillary as a vote for Hillary, because I certainly did not vote for her. Having Hillary as a president would have set a horrible precedent regarding our attitude toward abiding the law.
As far as Trump goes... I am sad about the precedent he sets regarding our attitude toward women, minorities, and the example he sets for how we should behave as human beings in general. And I worry about our international relations with him as president as well since he lacks tact, and the ability to garner respect from others. Although I must admit that his business experience should have prepared him for at least faking both attributes (although you'd think we would have witnessed that in the months preceding the election). But, that's all just my opinion.
I read a post a while back from a woman who had been abused and her feelings toward the fact that there was even a possibility of having a man like Trump as president... For me, I don't take it quite that personally... But there is a part of me that knows that policies regarding the abuse of women could be injured due to his presidency. Having him as president does not teach America to be kind, to protect the vulnerable, or to expect valor from our men... It teaches us that men can get away with saying anything they want. It says men can get away with groping us. And as someone who has been there, done that... It is a little sad... If it isn't obvious, no, I didn't vote for him either. But there are lots of terrible people in the world and there always have been.. but good is still possible and it doesn't mean that terrible things have to happen. Trials are for growing.
But as surreal as this day is... My primary focus still has to be on me. My God. My kids. My spouse. My friends. Because I still need to clean my house. I still need to find joy. I still need to figure out how to be a better person, form and follow a routine for my kids, read my scriptures and write in my journal... I still need to regain the attitude of gratitude that I once had. I still need to be strong. I still need to have hope. I still need to attend the Temple and play with my kids. And of course, a multitude of other things ;)
Yesterday marked some positive things in my life like hearing that I was the perfect candidate for the anti-depressants I've been taking and that an increased dosage should do the trick.. Like deciding that I was fit enough mentally to declare yesterday my last day of therapy (with the caveat of course that should I feel the need, I will return)... Like realizing that healing is possible (not just for me but for others I know) and remembering that the atonement applies to me too.. And my family. I have hope and that is refreshing.
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